City_a Poem
In a world of hurt and loss lies something more Yet lives are torn and ripped asunder. Underneath a cold exterior People pass by unseen and unheard. Lost within a tumult of noise Values are discarded with the evening trash. Virtue dies and souls shrivel While around us favor seems to flee. As I sit soaking in the city life I find solace in my knowledge. Knowledge that promises for better. Knowledge that promises improvement. A quiet whispering nudges at me; Directing me into places where I feel warmth. Places where love is love... not lust. My soul sings as I see the brighter side of things.
What's in a Muse?
A thought struck me this morning as I was cleaning in the office. Muses are found in all things. After reading Judge's blog about his muse, I started thinking about my muses. They come in all kinds of shapes, colors, smells and persons. Some last longer than others, and some leave such a deep impact on one's soul that they never lose the power of the muse. The Greek's knew what they were talking about when they spoke of their muses in art, music and..... heh ^^;.... I know there's three, but I can't remember number three. C'est la vie. My personal muses are many. Rain, my niece Ariel, my dog Trey... every one of my friends can get my creative juices flowing. Chocolate... egg rolls and even soft fleece fabrics blow open the dam that holds these juices at bay within me.
The power of a muse and being a muse is phenominal. Being affected in such a way that the world you knew is more vivid and caddywampus changes who you are. Muses sing to us in a way that teachers, books and the Spirit sometimes can't. Muses are powerful, but they also are only that way because we, those affected by them, give them that power. (: I thrive off of feeling that way... no matter how impractical it may be. We are here in this life to learn how to live and enjoy living. Bumps and bruises come along the path, but alluding back to another Judge post, these help us to realize the fragility of mortality. As this realization settles in, one can have the clarity one needs to look around and find something that sings to them and be their muse.
Song of the Day
"My Friend" by Blessed Union of Souls
Backlisting My Songs of the Day
So... I've neglected this for a little while now. I do have some songs of the day that I've missed.
"Freebird" by Lynard Skynard
"Hold On" by Sarah McLachlan
"Philosophy" by Ben Folds Five
"Brick" by Ben Folds Five
"Hear You Me" by Jimmy Eat World
"Gun" by Uncle Tupelo
"Tonight I Wanna Cry" by Keith Urban
"Daylight" by Alison Krauss
"Steamroller" by James Taylor
"Innocent" by Fuel
"Bother" by Corey Taylor
"Genreal" by Guster (at least that's what the itunes thingy says)
"Far Away Boys" by Flogging Molly
"Night" by Little Betty Tokyo
"Bottle Up and Explode" by Elliott Smith
Unfortunately, these aren't all of the songs that I've missed. There are others that I don't quite remember though.
Breaking My Cardinal Rule of Blogging... and I'm Okay
Well... here goes my breaking and compromising the integrity of my blogging lifespan. Fei... for this, you have helped me to realize that there's nothing wrong with expressing my thoughts about personal things. Your repeated entries about your life, and the fact that you do not seem phased by people being able to read your thoughts about life have helped me come to this conclusion. I want people's opinions on this situation:
There is a guy at home waiting for me... and we are official. :D Am I happy? So much so that I couldn't focus in my classes yesterday so I ditched the afternoon ones. *sighs* This is the thing that supposed to cause great happiness in me right?? Having a boyfriend... Right? Someone... anyone... What is holding me back from sreaming at the top of my lungs that I have a boyfriend? I am so thrilled that we are now official and I no longer feel pressure on my chest whenever we chat online or on the phone. My heart now feels more confused than I ever thought possible. Why you might be thinking? There is nothing in the lease bit wrong with him, in fact he's practically perfect. Just awesome and amazing.... but I still find myself holding back.
One opinion is that I have never really been in a relationship like this which is fully the truth. What comes with that inexperience is the hesitating thoughts that I don't know what it means to be a girlfriend; for I do not have a clue. *shakes head* Why do I hesitate from one of the best things to come into my life?
Oh man... when did I fall????
