Misadventures in Dating

After tonight and a couple of previous dates that were on the so-so side, I'm realizing the difficulty and stress of dating. In high school and college even, dating didn't seem to have as many unspoken expectations as dating now seems to have. I never know if/when the guy might be expecting more from me than I am "giving" or how he'll react to who I am as a whole. I've discovered that I talk a lot while on dates but then again, I talk a lot to my friends and family. I've discovered that I can't read men as well as I can read women. I've discovered that even though I've made up my mind to not be in the "hunt" while I date, I'm certainly not in a "make friends" mode either.

Aw, being stuck somewhere inbetween surely is a rather annoying place to be. I've never seen myself as the flirty, ditsy type of woman who doesn't really care if she finds someone to make out with or who'll completely devote himself to her. I think I do well on dates, but first date number three since I moved down here and not a second yet. Of course, I must give it time. Three dates in two months is quite the feat for me. Maybe it just boils down to an attraction issue with me. Issue seems to carry a negative conotation to some people, but there is nothing negative about it with me.

Ultimately though, it would be nice if dating would be less of a misadventure where all sorts of bungles, mayhem, and misunderstandings occur and more of an adventure where it gets adrenaline pumping, excitement sparked and connections to be made.

Whatever dating becomes, it will always be this: a once in a lifetime chance.