Song of the Day

"Again I Go Unnoticed" by Dashboard Confessional

Song of the Day

We have a special treat for all you cruisin' the bloggers domain; Two songs of the day!!!!

"Oceanside" by The Decemberists
&
"Point of No Return" by Emmy Rossum and Gerard Butler

Song of the Day

"Mary Lou" by Rednex.

Crazy Day

Nothing like losing your mind four weeks before you graduate to make life a roller coaster. And no, this isn't the senioritis. :P

Questions, Questions Everywhere

Why do I love so blindly?
Why did I open my heart?
What is this thing felt inside me?
What causes the doubt?
When did the fallout happen?
When was the last time he called?
Where did our enthusiazism die?
How could I let this happen?
Where did my mind go?
What in the world was I thinking?
Why did I let this one go?
Was I foolish to think this might work out?
How much more should I take?
Where in the world could he be now?
Is he even thinking of me now?
How are these tears not falling?
When did my heart break its last?
Does this time ever slacken?
When will these pressures cease?
Do lovers like me reunite?
Does love conquer all?
Can the rain truly wash away the thoughts that bring tears?
Will nights awake serving others help me to find solace?
Will my heart win out in the end?
Can opportunity cost really outweigh the equation?
Who has the super glue to repair broken hearts?
Does duct tape and super glue really fix everything?
How about a staple gun and bleach?
Will I ever be able to truly say what I want to say and have it be understood that way?
When will I learn to completely trust Heavenly Father?
When the door closes, can it ever be reopened?
Can confusion be defeated?
Will there ever be a time in life where people see beyond stereotypes?
Can prejudice be overcome by education?
Will the rantings of a sleep deprived college student make much of a difference?
In the end, does it really matter?

Song of the Day

"Standing Still" by Jewel.

Now Accepting Applications

So... the past week or so has opened my eyes to the many possibilities of life. Not only have the possibilities been revealed, but also the infinite paths that lay ahead. Everyone has this multitude of paths in front of them. Kinda scary to think that one decision will lead you down any number of them, and that path can be both for the good and bad. There are so many wonderful things life has to offer us.

E has taken one of the many in choosing to go on the cruise that she's on right now instead of staying here for Spring. Though there are many of us who miss her, she's enriching her life.

Vasu has taken one of serving a mission. Only those who have served missions can know what pearls he'll receive on this path.

Those of us at college have choosen to increase our knowledge of something. This causes us to add more dimensions to ourselves or just deepen an existing one.

There are pluses and minuses to the things we choose to do with our lives, but I have yet to see anything that has no plus and also nothing without a minus. Rob put it in the form of a business term, "opportunity cost." My opportunity cost of coming back to graduate was not being able to stay near Alan and my family; especially my constantly growing nieces and nephew.

Sometimes making these decisions in life scares us spitless while others excite us to no end. Is there any denying that no matter the outcome or the path taken, these decisions will forever more alter who we were?

This marathon of mine isn't even articulated as well as I had hoped I could. The title... well let's just say that it applies in so much as you want it to. I am not writing this post as council or to pursuade anyone. My thoughts as senioritis courses through my system, slowly taking control of all my faculties. I am not ready to give up this life yet. I'm so happy with the family I have established here in the islands. Drama is very much a part of this family, like any other nuclear family. Fraught with emotions and love, we push on. I will forever be changed for good because of them.

Also, remember to wear your sun screen. (;

Song of the Day

"Best I'll Ever Be" by Sister Hazel